DO WE REALLY UNDERSTAND OURSELVES???
think on it long and hard "DO WE REALLY UNDERSTAND OURSELVES?" the answer for me is a resounding "YES" as i knew early in life who and what i was... you may ask who and what am i ??? well.. the answer is simple my real first name is ray and i am a bottom submissive to men... for you it may not be that simple you may have a situation where you cannot be as open about who you are but.... that's ok you are a person and you are who GOD in HIS wisdom wanted you to be so be proud of who and what you are and to the nay sayers tell them where they can now go....
However, I do believe there is a 'force' in the universe that becomes apparent when there is a structure for it to be reflected from or refracted through. That structure could be a galaxy, a molecule, an atom, a tree, rock, brain, rain, prism... structure is where the nothingness of existence starts to make sense and enjoy itself.
As for understanding myself.. I'm content with the realization that I CANNOT define myself with any limited set of terms, and who I am (or who I perceive I am) will keep changing at any given point of that. I'm all of the labels, and at any time, a small selection of that huge potentially infinite subset of terms and labels. And I'm okay with that. And I'm content with the fact that I don't have to limit myself to other people's definitions.. I feel it gives me freedom to change constantly and still retain some semblance of identity. That takes care of all those feelings of guilt and doubt and indecision, not to mention all those sleepless nights wasted in meandering vexing thoughts.
All I know is I am a part of the Universe, and the Universe is a part of me. Literally. Like Carl Sagan beautifully said, We are all star stuff.