First time I sucked a cock

There are 2 adult stores not too far away from me. I went to the adult store that's further from me. Its the darker dirtier place, but that sordid vibe sorta makes it hotter to go there at times. At other times I prefer the one that's a bit closer and cleaner.

Anyway, I was in there for a while walking to all 3 areas, seeing porn movies on the big screen TVs and seeing guys stroking and sucking others quite a bit. I had even stroked a couple of guys, but both wanted blowjobs but I didn't want to suck. After maybe 90 minutes, I was thinking of going home. I was sitting in this one area that has several couches and 2 different straight porn movies showing on 2 TVs. There was a guy kneeling and sucking another guy's cock about 10 feet from me and I was watching them enjoy it. From my point of view I could also see out into the hallway where the booths are and saw some guys walking in the hall every so often, but now there was a guy standing out there with his thumbs tucked into his belt and his hands sort of making a triangle around his crotch. His cock was not out, and he was staring a hole in my head. I was a little creeped out and looked away, but looked back again a minute later and he was still standing there and staring at me. This went on for several minutes and finally I recognized him. He was a guy I had stroked on an earlier visit to this store. He tried getting me to suck his cock in one of the booths that time. I had gotten close but could not quite do it. He even had me kiss his balls and shaft and had the tip on my lips at one point, but I didn't suck him.

Back to the current trip. He knew I recognized him and he nodded at me, looked down at his crotch and then tilted his head to tell me "come over here" without saying a word. This happened 2 more times and I found myself walking over to him, and right there in the hall I put my hand on his crotch. I rubbed through his pants a little and he took me into a booth with him. he stood on the bench in the booth and i was standing in front of him. He took his cock out and I started to stroke it. He soon went through much of the same in trying to get me to suck. I rubbed his dick on my face, even kissed the shaft and his balls again. He even had me sucking his thumbs like cocks. My head started to swim a little and i told him I needed to stop for a minute. I went to sit on the bench but he stopped me, it was only a short bench (I hadn't noticed) and not enough room to sit down as he stood on it. He told me to go to booth #10, I did, sat on the bench and a moment later he came in and stood on the bench (it was a longer bench) He took out his cock again....and after a bit of stroking him, I was sucking on his thumb when he told me to just open my mouth and he'd just put the tip in. It was almost like I was watching someone else...but my mouth opened and his cockhead entered my mouth. I was another person...I closed my lips around it and it felt so good in my mouth. I started swirling my tongue around his cock, and took a little more in my mouth. I'd say he was maybe 5" long and not too thick. I was surprised that I was able to get all of it in my mouth...my nose was in his pubes. I began bobbing my head I don't remember what I was thinking about. At one point he pulled out of my mouth but I leaned in and took him in my mouth again. I had my hands on his hips and was pulling him forward. Then it happened again and I responded the same way, I WANTED his cock in my mouth. After a few minutes I sorta came to my senses and stopped I was so confused. I said I needed to get my head around what I was doing. He told me to stand up, turn around and drop my pants. I was wearing my wifes panties, and he noticed (of course) and complimented me on them. Then he said, "i'm going to make you mine." My knees buckled a little and I said, "Are you going to make me your bitch?" (I dont know where that came from.)

He pushed me back down to sitting in front of him, his cock right in my face and I started to eagerly suck it again. He put his hands on my head and started to slowly fuck my mouth. Soon he was fucking harder and saying "bitch" with each thrust. After he did that a while, I reached down to touch my dick in my panties and I started cumming so hard. He noticed and asked if I'd cum and I said "yes" then asked him not to cum in my mouth. He surprised me and wiped his dick with a paper towel he had, then put his cock away with the towel in his underwear. He told me to be careful in this place...some of these guys suck and fuck anything and they'd take advantage of me. He pulled up his pants and left without another word.

At the time, I didn't think he'd cum, but now I think he may have orgasmed without ejaculating or he didnt have much cum in him at that point and I just didnt notice when he'd dibbled some out.

I straightened myself up and left a few minutes after him.

For about a month after this encounter I was very upset with myself, I'd cheated on my wife, I had had gay sex, I had possibly exposed both wife and I to STDs. I swore up and down I'd never go back there and never ever do that again. I was HUGELY conflicted about what I'd done and how I felt about it.